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Jekyll Island: Sunrise

One moon.
One sun.
 
Who drips red up
from water.
We are here
to honor
the sea.
 
I’m lucky
I don’t
live here
because this way
every day
is magic –
 
would I want
to think that this
is ordinary?

Sitting — Part 2

When I close my eyes,

first I see

a vibrating filament,

that with effort

I can cause to vibrate

in one place.

Vibrating and still

all at once.

Then I see a soft blanket,

smoothed of any wrinkles.

Like I’ve calmed the surface

of the sea.

Songs: Summer

Cicada roar –
waves of vibrating sound
crash on a leafy shore;
the insects hug close against
the gold-green trees of summer.
Or they could be thousands
of those rain tubes that you
turn upside down, singing
together in a round.
 
Tiny weathermen –
seems the louder
they hum, the hotter
it will be.  The sound of eternity
breaking from the hot
Earth’s core, gets inside my head
and I hear their mantra
rattling inside everything:
 
in the air conditioner, the hair dryer
the engine of the car –
I hear them everywhere
they are or are not,
like the way I could see only
shark’s teeth when I closed my eyes,
after searching at the beach.  

Once in a Lifetime

I was recently remembering a time that I was driving back to Utah from a trip to Orvis, Colorado.  Just a gorgeous area, amazing natural hot springs, totally my thing.  Driving home through the evergreen-filled mountains, I passed through a valley of sorts and came upon hundreds, if not thousands, of elk grazing in the setting sunlight.  At the time, in 2002, I thought, “There is no way that I will not be back here soon.  Maybe even once a year.”  Yet, nine years later, I have never been back.  Even when I do go back, what are the chances that I will see all those elk that way again…I think maybe that was a once in a lifetime thing.

I’ve been very fortunate to have many of those moments in nature with all the camping and backpacking I did when I was a kid, through the few years after college.  Being in nature is always where I have felt most at home, and most felt the presence of God.  That’s where it’s easiest for me.  I can recall one magical moment after the other from hiking and swimming the crystal clear lakes of the Upper Peninsula of Michigan, to walking the pristine beaches of Bali, to riding in a hot air balloon over the stunning desert landscape of the Valley of the Gods.  Each place, each time, I know that about 25% of me was thinking, “I’ll be back here; I’ll see this again in my life.”  And never have I ever re-created one of those moments.  This leads me to realize again the ancient truth that here and now is all we are guaranteed.  See each moment, and appreciate it, for just what it is in all its spectacular singularity.  A once in a lifetime moment.  Because in less than an hour things will be different.  Maybe even very, very different. 

You will never go back.

While I have been required to see natural beauty in a tamer setting these days, I recognize that all of the above applies very much to my family life, which has taken priority in my life over the past seven years.  It’s always been a priority, to be sure, but since my own marriage and the birth/upcoming birth of my children that priority has shifted to becoming nearly all consuming.  I have yet to find a way to completely synthesize my love of travel and the natural world into my current life, but I’m not too worried about it.  I know that the moments I have with my children and spouse, parents, brother, and grandparents are as beautiful and unrepeatable as any sunset over the Grand Canyon.  Moreso.  I could have moved to any one of those amazing places if I wanted to, but always the draw of my family has pulled me back home.  I do believe that love, and relationships with other people, is all that we will take with us when we leave Earth.  Though it would be nice to take a few of those lakes and sunsets, too!

Basically, what I am trying to say is that every moment is once in a lifetime.  I think my daughter has made me realize that more than ever as she changes so quicky from week to week.

Heavenly Day

(That is a great song by Patti Griffin, by the way). 

When I stepped out my front door at 6:45 this morning, it was raining.  But it was so gorgeously warm and balmy.  It was one of just a few times where I’ve stepped into darkness and felt totally comfortable.  Usually, the dark scares me — that fear of the unseen.  This morning, though, felt like the time I was in the Caribbean.

We stepped into the ocean and it was clear and blue and warm and the French couple we met — the guy — described it as the only time he’d been swimming in the ocean when he felt “no hesitation.”  That’s how I felt this morning.  I stepped into the warm wet darkness like I had stepped into the ocean: with no hesitation. 

The tall tree in front of me opened thousands of its white flowers in my face and all the birds were singing and singing.  Was it a bright and sunny afternoon?  No.  Was it beautiful?  Yes.

Magnetic Poetry

When I lived in Utah, I had a friend who had magnetic poetry on her fridge.  She always had the best poems stuck up there!  She was a very neat and creative lady.  When I moved back home after my year of service on the Reservation, J. and I got a box of the magnetic words for our fridge.

I was not nearly as prolific a fridge poet as I would have hoped, but I did have two little ones up for over a year.  My daughter loves to pull the letters down and hide them in secret places around the house, so the magnetic poetry is on its last legs. 

I have grown accustomed to reading the two poems every day, and however unimpressive they may be, they are words I am used to seeing and I don’t want to forget them after everything is back in a little box.  The first is good for the season:

rhythm

kiss as always

the eternally

young

season:

spring.

And the second:

Father mother

baby daughter

heart ocean

surrounds.

Leaving the Island

I carried my daughter out onto our balcony to say goodbye to the ocean at 6:30 in the morning, before we got in the car for the longest drive in the world.  It was still dark and the water was so quiet that I told her the ocean was still asleep. 

She said, “And he takes his blankie and lays down his little ocean head on his little ocean pillow…”

Goodbye Cedar Key!

two year old sees an egret

White egret

standing in the water

looks like the crests of the waves

breaking around him.

The stormy air still thick

the egret flies away

my daughter says,

“Look at the bird

swimmin’ through

the air.”

Ceremony

Closing my eyes on the couch

in the house above the ocean,

I heard what I imagined was a woman

shaking out the laundry

to hang it on a line.

Wet clothes smacked the air;

I was dozing and dreaming

of this woman working.

I saw her behind closed eyelids:

hair pulled back but flying away

in the salty air, red

and yellow shirts, blue jeans

kept slapping, slapping

as she shook them out.

Finally getting up to see,

I leaned against the rail of my balcony.

Ten pelicans sat like fat footballs

on the calm water below;

they were taking turns

smacking their wings with purpose

against the ocean’s face. 

One set off the next, and they beat

their wings on water.

Until eventually: they pumped their feet

against the soft runway,

and then they flew away.

Pelicans of Cedar Key

I just watched thirty pelicans fly by my open balcony doors! 

I think the birds are starting to come back to the area to nest on the protected island nearby where people are not allowed and where there is a rookery.  We boated out there a few days ago, but the birds had not arrived yet. 

Seeing the group fly by just now was spectacular, though, and I can only imagine what the skies are like in a few weeks.

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